I LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND I DO NOT LIKE THIS PERSON I SEE LOOKING BACK AT ME. AS A MATTER OF FACT I HAVE NEVER LIKED THIS PERSON NOT ONCE, THIS MAY BE THE REASON WHY I AM NOT HAPPY IN LIFE, I MEAN SURE I SMILE AND LAUGH ALL THE TIME BUT DEEP DOWN INSIDE WHEN I AM LEFT ALONE TO REFLECT ON THIS PATHETIC CHAOS I CALL MY LIFE, THERE IS NOT ONCE THING THAT I HAVE DONE THAT I AM PROUD OF, ALL MY LIFE, I DID WHAT MADE OTHERS HAPPY, OR WHAT PLEASED OTHERS, TO THE POINT WHERE I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY OR WHAT PLEASES ME. I HAVE AN IDEA OF THE KIND OF PERSON THAT I WANT TO BE BUT LOOKING AT THIS PERSON THAT I AM RIGHT NOW? THESE TWO PERSONS ARE AT TWO DIFFERENT ENDS OF A STICK. I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO FIND OR RATHER BECOME THIS PERSON, PEOPLE SAY WELL JUST WORK TOWARDS IT AND BELIEVE ME I HAVE BEEN TRYING BUT IT IS VERY HARD. I WANT TO GET TO A PEACEFUL PLACE IN MY LIFE, TO A PLACE WHERE I AM NOT INSECURE BECAUSE I AM NOT CAPABLE OF DOING EVERYTHING, A PLACE WHERE I AM COMFORTABLE WITH MY LEVEL OF INTELLIGENCE AND DO NOT ENVY OTHER PEOPLE FOR BEING SMARTER THAN ME BUT SIMPLY REALIZING THAT IF I WORK HARDER I COULD ALSO ATTAIN THAT LEVEL. I WANT TO GET TO A PLACE WHERE I DO NOT WORRY ABOUT MY BODY SHAPE AND THE COLOR OF MY SKIN OR MY FLAWS BUT SIMPLY BEING THANKFUL THAT I AM A HEALTHY INDIVIDUAL. I WANT TO GET TO A PLACE WHERE I KNOW WHO I AM, AND WHAT MY PURPOSE ON THIS EARTH IS. I WANT TO GET TO A PLACE WHERE I AM NO SWAYED BY WHAT PEOPLE WANT FROM ME WHETHER IT BE FAMILY FRIENDS OR LOVED ONES, BUT RATHER WHERE GOD WANTS ME TO GO AND WHAT I DESIRE FOR MY OWN SELF. I WANT TO GET TO A PLACE WHERE I AM NOT MOVED BY THE NEGATIVE THINGS THAT PEOPLE SAY ABOUT ME BUT SIMPLY BY THE ACOMPLISHMENTS THAT OTHERS SEE THAT I AM CAPABLE OF. I WANT TO GET TO A PLACE WHERE I CAN APPRECIATE THE STRUGGLES OF LIFE, KNOWING THAT THEY WILL NOT BE THE SAME IN THE FUTURE. I WANT TO GET TO A PLACE WHERE IT DOESNT MATTER WHAT EVERYONE IS DOING, BUT WHAT FEELS RIGHT TO ME. I WANT TO GET TO A PLACE WHERE I HAVE FAITH IN MY ABILITIES TO ACCOMPLISH ALL OF THE GOALS I SET FOR ME IN A REASONNABLE MANNER. I WANT TO GET TO A PLACE WHERE I CAN ANSWER WITH CONFIDENCE THE QUESTION WHO AM I?
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