during the day, while everything is going on i never stop to think about you
it is much easier to pretend like everything is fine
that i don't mind if you are not mine
but at night as i sit in my room
surrounded by the 4 corners of my walls
i start to reminisce about the time spent talking on the phone
i replay those nights when all i wanted to do was to just stay in your arms
i closed my eyes and i am taken back a year ago when everything felt so right
through the night everything is alright
i open my eyes and all i have are the memories
everything else is gone, even the flurries
on that very first day when we first met
the promises of forever long gone
i remember the smiles on both of our faces
my, how happy we were during those days
rays of sunshine penetrating my window let me know that the day has begun
once again i go about my day as if everything is alright
i try my hardest to smile and laugh hoping to get through this phase
i am very proud so never have i allowed my emotions to come through
somehow at night i am not able to control them
as the end of the day nears
the night approaches and once again i fear
the tormenting memories, i am a prisoner of them at night
it seems they won't allow me to think of anything else but the way it felt to be held by you.
the way it felt to be caressed by you
the way i could feel your kisses at the core of my soul
at night it is impossible for me to pretend that i don't care
it is only at night that i am able to completely let go
because i know no one is watching, i can't feel weak
at night i still dream of what it felt like to be alive
to not just live during the day going through the motions of being in control
at night i can let go of the inhibitions and finally admit that i do still wish you were around
at night i can say it aloud
i might, maybe just maybe if night were to stay around forever
finally admit that i love you
but only at night.
